29tH aUg 2004

Todae is Sunday.. suppose to be family day.. haha.. but korkor not at home.. then I oso went out.. wanted to study.. end up no mood to study.. lolx.. went to orchad with sihui.. muz apologize to victoria.. paiseh.. by right todae go out with u de.. then end up fang ni de fei ji.. sumimasai.. hehe.. anywhere.. went to far east todae.. bought a shirt from ice lemon tee and pure milk.. hehe.. den do henna on my right feet.. 12bucks.. hehe.. went shopping all the way from 1++ to 6++.. so tired sia.. then went home alone.. coz sihui alighted at ang mo kio.. haix.. hao xiang nian ta.. hao tong ku.. got stead like no stead like tht.. ='( so sad.. really miss him.. can anyone tell me what shud I do ? haix..~~!! Anyway.. 8more days to my first n’level paper.. muz jiayou..! my target: 5points or lesser.. if can get 3 best la.. hehe.. but a bit impossible for me loe.. coz my standard like dunno what shit like tht.. haix~! Dunno what to write liao.. onli thing I can sae is tht.. I really miss him very much.. although can see him, but still feel like we are so far away.. haix. I extracted the following short story from my friend, VindiCatEd.. somehow, its like similar to my case bahx.. enjoy reading.. very touching..

My feeling for this moment.. i dunno why.. juz feel depress deep in my heart..

this is how it begin..
Jun & Jen were a pair of young couple.Jun was veri charming & many girls kept falling in love with him. hence he became quite a flirt. Jen was an ordinary girl with average looks.though there were quite a no.of guys chasing her, jen only had Jun in her heart.She knew that 1 day Jun would eventually leave her she still continued 2 love him whole heartedly.Jen loves rainy days.she loves playing in the rain, & whenever Jun wanted 2 join her, she'll always stop him from joining.Jun ask her; Why don't you let me join you?Jen replied;becoz i don't want u 2 fall sick.Jun then ask again;If playing in the rain will make me fall sick, then y r u still doing it?But each time Jen will keep quiet & smile at him. Although Jun was`t able to join her, he felt happy.To him, as long as Jen was happy, he'll be happy as well. :)However, nothin last long. Jun fell 4 another girl after 2 months. He even love the girl more deeply den he love jen One day, while Jun & Jen were having their dinner, Jun told Jen that dis would be their last dinner together. Jen looked at him. She knew dat this was going 2 happen, but she choose not to ask any farther.Jun then requested for a break up. And Jen accepted willingly. partly because, she knew.Jun was just like the wind.never stop at any point.That night it was 2 be the last time Jun send Jen home. Jen kept veri quiet although deep down she wanted 2 know the reasons but she choose not to ask. Just when Jen was about to step into the lift, Jun stop her. He said:Jen, I'm really sorry that i've let u down. But i'llnever forget those days when i see you playing in the rain.those r the most happy & unforgottable memories i had with u. After listening to Jun, Jen could't help it but cried.Jun hugged her tightly. He said:Jen, There's 1 qn i wanted 2 ask u long ago. Why is it everytime when u r playing in the rain, you just would`t allow me 2 accompany u?Jen was stunned.pausing for a few seconds,Jen replied.Becoz i don't wish 2 let U know...I WAS CRYING

today's inspiration: May the road rise up to meet you. May the wind be always at your back. The rain falls soft upon your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the Palm of His hand.

i love u always.. may god bless everyone, sembwinds and the both of us.. good night..