18tH oCt 2004

yeah!! todae is my birthday!! so happy.. lolx.. so many good things happen for the past few daes. but oso got sad things la. haix. anyway. 16th went downtown east for the chalet until todae. lolx. the keyboard there so difficult to type sia. type until finger drop. keke. then bryan so easy to bluff. i mid-night 3am++ tell him i now at pasir ris de cyber cafe, he believe. lolx. dIaOx. lolx. hmm.. first dae a bit blur blur like tht, then after a while ok liao. a day before gary called me and told me he got a surprise for me. then they told me he coming. then end up he didnt came in. so disappointed. haix. so fun. yest we went wild wild wet. lolx. pengx ah. we play until like mad man mad woman like tht. lolx. then yest night xiangwei pinch my face when we watching tv. lolx. so pain. muahahaha. this morning after 10.30am then we check out. then the maid sae, "xiao mei ah, must check out before 10.30am hoh." haha.

hmm. the second dae me, justina, dingwen, boye and xiangwei we go out and play la, like walk arnd like tht la. lolx. then before tht xiangwei told me he came liao but he dun wan come in, then we saw him sitting outside bk, orh orh. den after tht we go walk walk lo but he didnt follow. after tht around 4++am like tht we go back the room then i told them i wan go walk walk alone. so i went to the lobby la, coz i just cant ease my mind la. like so late liao then he still alone outside, so i went and look for him la. when i go there he fell asleep liao, i tapped his shoulder he oso no respond. so i sat down and look at him la. look until i oso fell asleep.then when i woke up i saw him sit down there listen music, i look at him, then he refuse to meet my eyes. i was like looking at him for 10-15minutes, but he didnt look at me. so i was kinda like fed up la. then i juz walk awae, then oso my eyes oso wet wet la. like very disappointing loe. like he now dun treat me as his frend liao. haix. then like tht loe. haix. got nth to sae.

anyway. i got tht job at heeren de sakae sushi. tml 10am start work. haha. so happy. $5.5 per hour. hmm. not bad not bad. lolx. then gotta work hard. lolx. i got the job for some reasons. first i muz try to earn my own pocket money. second, i muz use the job to numb myself, so tht i wun anyhow think. third, hmm.. i duno. lolx.

i very happy lehx!! haha.. to all my friends, thanks for all the present!! sorry to make u all spend so much money. keke. got money eat mahx ? haha. u all realli noe me well, noe i like piggy. lolx. so many pple buy pig pig stuff for me.. lolx. i told mum i wan make shelf put all the pig pig on it. haha. anyway. tml i starting work at heeren de sakae sushi at 10am. lolx. muz go orh orh liao. cya. take care! love u guys!! good night. may god bless everyone!! tata!

hmm.. no matter what happen , i juz cant forget what happen in the past loe. i juz feel very bothered with tht loe. like theres a knot inside me. and he's the onli one who can untie those knots. haix. anyway. juz hope for the best for everything!

October 15, 2004
We probably wouldn't worry about what people think of us if we could know how seldom they do.

dAiLy'S iNsPiRatIoN:
October 16, 2004
Nothing makes you like other human beings so much as doing things for them.

October 17, 2004
You wake up in the morning, and your purse is magically filled with twenty-four hours of unmanufactured tissue of the universe of your life! It is yours. It is the most precious of possessions. No one can take it from you. And no one receives either more or less than you receive.

October 18, 2004
Tough times never last, tough people do.