25tH sEpT 2004

U broke the promise btw the both of us again.. remember tht day at the staircase there.. what u have told me? can u remember? Why are u so heartless.. the second u broke off with me becoz u said u wanted to be alone.. then one month later.. u ask for patch.. I tot of it, trying my best to gif u my reply asap.. I agreed.. then u promise tht u will not break my heart again.. now.. u said the same reason why u wan a break off.. the same old reason.. why?!?! If u wanted to be alone, why did u ask for patch at the beginning ?!!? why? Why must u do this kind of things to break my heart again and again..?!? WHY?!?!?!!?!?!? Izzit very fun to see pple sad? Y muz all this things happen rite b4 my exams?! WHY?? All I wna to noe is.. have u really love me before..? thts all I wna to noe.. if u didnt love b4, why did u ask for patch? WHY? I cried yesterday, todae and even right now.. juz becoz of u.. why are u so cruel.. why? wat have I done wrong again?! Tell me why? if u really think tht it is so impossible for us to be together.. tell me straight in front of my face, I wan to hear it from u.. I'm tired out.. u have never care how I felt.. u have nvr tried to read my mind and noe what I am thinking about.. u wan to keep it low-profile, this means tht I cannot stay too close with u when we are in sch.. this doesnt mean tht I dun love u.. have u ever asked me what happened at home? If u sae tht I dun love u, why do I have to sneak out, cook lies and bluff my parents tht I am going out with my frends for supper juz to meet u.. all I wan to do is to spend some time with u.. thts all.. why do I have to suffer all this things when u are doing things which breaks my heart ? U PROMISED ME THT U WUN BREAK MY HEART AGAIN BUT U DID IT AGAIN.. I hate u!! u are a liar.. YOU NVR CARED HOW I FELT!! HAVE YOU EVER LOVE ME BEFORE? HAVE YOU? WHY DIDNT U REPLY ME? I ASKED U THT QUESTION, WHY DIDNT U REPLY ME.. GOT NOTHING TO SAE? Is this really what u wan? I’M HEARTBROKEN.. YOU BROKE EVERY LITTLE PIECE OF HEART THT I KEPT IT WITH U.. U BROKE IT FOR THE THIRD TIME.. THIS IS THE THIRD TIME.. my life sucks.. u took away the colours u have added into my life.. nothing is meaningful and important to me in this world.. u have destroyed my life.. u destroyed everything.. u are the one who have caused the major destruction in my life.. nothing can revive it anymore.. nothing.. NOTHING!!! todae supposed to be our special.. u can't even sustain it for a month...................................................................................................................................................................................

Today's inspiration: never toy with a girl's feeling. u will regret for what you have done to the destruction. Do so self-reflection and seek for solutions.